I don't know how far I can go with
my 3 therapies, but I have a feeling I'm going to find out in 2019... Why?
because I'm challenging myself more, trying more - that means finding out what
works, & what doesn't work.
I have to deal with disappointment,
as well as success - which actually is pretty much how life works, right?
My stamina is slowly building - I'm
slowly getting stronger... my thinking is gaining clarity - I'm understanding
my "flavor" of Anxiety more & more. It makes sense to me that I'm seeing improvement
because it's only been the last year that I've had the tools to work on these.
My automatic thought is "why
did it take me so long?" & then I think "because it was a process
- give yourself credit that you kept looking, & DID reach out, & now
you're doing this hard, important work with Christina."
Pre illness, I was on the other side
of the volunteer fence - looking for reliable, caring, competent people... I've
gathered a lot of info - I have a better idea of what's out there... Now I need
someplace that is able to be accommodating to someone with disabilities.
Maybe I'll revisit this idea again,
but right now is not the right time for me - I'm not ready... will I be able to
do something more than the VeDA calls, & post sharing I do now? Will there be someplace that can accommodate,
that's interesting for me, that I can handle?
I don't know... for now, I'll focus
in my 3 therapies, finding - by trying - areas I can still improve.
