September 9, 2021 - One decade... be present.

It’s been a decade since I got sick. I didn’t know then, that night, that my life was dramatically changed. I’ve done therapies, and they’ve...

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May 30th, 2020 - I'm lucky, & look for the good





I consider myself lucky. When COVID-19 surfaced, I was not in search of diagnoses - I've got them. Nor was I in search of treatment - in fact I'd been doing all my treatments for years.

I am now in "patient heal thyself" mode re my Feldenkrais therapy.  I may need a zoom session at some point, and maybe at some point I will feel safe enough to do a session in person. But not now.


I also discovered that now that I'm no longer doing Feldenkrais or vision therapy, though I still think about my health situation, I think about it less. I try to keep busy. I want to get what I can out of life, rather than focusing on therapy.

I'm comfortable making my own, thought through, rational decisions about how much I do now, versus in months to come. Short term cost for long term gain is OK with me. At the age of 59, I'm not done with this thing called life. For myself, for my family, and whatever the future holds.


It's hard these days to feel optimistic, but past generations have endured so much, I have to believe we can see our way through this pandemic. So I try to focus on the present, one day at a time.


Find good moments to treasure.  String them together in my mind, and try to make them stick. Memory is a complicated, ephemeral thing, but I'll still look for the good where I can.

The selfie was taken on my birthday. The flowers are all from our walks with our dog.

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