I'm having stretches of what I think
is normal, healthy productivity at home - what Christina calls activities of
daily living - ADL... not completely symptom-free, which is OK.
I'm telling myself not to compare to
my pre-illness self... these stretches feel oddly strange, kind of surprise me,
but I know it's good :-) I want as much normal as possible - normal isn't - I
don't think - one spot, there's a range.
In neurological rehab speak, I'm
starting to have times when I can multi-task on a more complex level -
1) proud of myself - chatted with
the exterminator tech today, instead of just what was absolutely necessary
2) getting my lunch started when the
tech was here
3) emptying the dishwasher while on
hold with Walgreens - which meant noise in the background
4) washing a pot is no longer as
challenging
5) doing a load of laundry is no
longer a major day's activity
6) going with Ron to Cosmo's senior
wellness check at the vet - she'll be surprised to see me - I've been by phone
for several years!
7) I'm using a smart phone!
I still can get really tired, & need
to remind myself of what I've done that day, & that it's OK to be tired -
this is how I slowly get stronger.
If someone had told me a year ago
how improved I'd be now, I wouldn't have been able to take it in, believe
it. A year ago, depression, & anxiety
shrouded and obscured hope from view. It's coming into view again.
