Thinking about pulling myself "out
of the rabbit hole," I drew this last night -
I commented on FB in a vestibular
group that it's WAY too easy to "fall down the rabbit hole"... I love
when my daughters come home on break, but I start thinking about what I can't
do with them, and yup, down the rabbit hole I go...
SO, I thought, "OK, how can I
make the positive stuff more "sticky"? "
I thought about how I used to listen
to Jason Mraz's music, & then I stopped... last night, I pulled up his
newest album - I give myself credit that I'd bought it, even though I didn't
listen to it - & actually listened to 2 songs.
As I listened, I thought "he's
not ignoring all the bumps and bruises that people can get on their journeys, how
hard life can be... he's choosing to focus on the positive, to remind people
about the joy of living...".
Focusing on the positive means I
have to SAY it, make a conscious choice to pay attention, & OWN every
single thing - not negate the little stuff.. write it down, draw it, SAY it out
loud... Every. Single. Day.
I'm GOING to reclaim feeling good
about what I can do - believe goodness can co-exist with the sadness of loss, own
the reframing I can do of my negative thoughts... I'm not going to let Anxiety,
& its' buddy Depression, win!
I have the right - everyone with vestibular & vision disorders does - to a worthwhile
life!
