For the first time in a long time,
I'm actually looking forward to seeing Dr. Margolis next week... he's really
nice, but my anxiety & depression made me want to avoid.
Now I have some idea of what I'm
gonna talk about, & having goals doesn't seem ridiculous or far-fetched
1) I want to work on flexibility - which
on a systemic level is about much more than scheduling
2) I want to work on endurance/stamina
3) I want to work on socializing
4) I want to learn to use an iPhone
- that's a huge step for me... I've been phobic about them, so I've had a basic
phone for 6 yrs - yup, the same phone - I'm ready now for a smart phone
5) other - I don't really know, but I
want to leave myself open to possibilities
These goals aren't all new, and
they're all multi-systemic, but actually SAYING they're goals I want to work on
feels very different... Saying them means I'm really owning them... I can HAVE goals
- I don't think owning my MAV, CI and anxiety means I can't ALSO have, work on
goals, even while being present focused.
It's one thing to do therapies, it's
another when those therapies start getting integrated into my daily life -
& in bits & pieces, I think that's happening.
