1) challenging is okay - doing rehab
is kind of like going to school - it never really gets easy because you are
always challenging yourself - and that's OK.
2) planning - I forgot that if
you're going to do things, there is planning involved - sometimes the planning
is enjoyable, and sometimes it's an annoying pain in the butt.
3) yes, keep going - I remember
realizing a while back that when I'm tired or frustrated or feeling down, that
my anxiety gets triggered... What I just realized is that when my anxiety gets
triggered, my knee-jerk reaction is to stop rehab, in particular vision therapy
(VT) because it's challenging.
But the question isn't whether it's
challenging, and the point isn't to focus on that crystal ball in the future
and wonder how I will be in six months... the point is if I'm integrating my
rehab into my current life - and the answer to that is yes, AND whether or not
I am still making progress right now - and the answer to that is definitely "yes"
- so that means keep going, and that includes VT.
4) something will work - I'm not a statistician, but if you try a
bunch of different things I'm pretty sure that the chances are pretty high that
something - for any number of reasons - isn't going to work out, BUT I'm also
pretty sure that there's also a really good chance that something will!
5) positivity
= anxiety trigger - when I start to think positive, interestingly
it always triggers my anxiety - that old negative thinking loop... So I have to
say "okay, anxiety's happening, but that doesn't mean I stop."
