This drawing is what
grew out of my thoughts about neurological integration... I thought about all
the bits that slowly come together, forming a new, larger piece, & how
those pieces then become building blocks for more - so there are layers of neurological
integration.
The "x" is
because of how, to me, all my therapies intersect, & build on each other. Interestingly,
my vision therapist Ann - to whom I showed the picture on my phone - said that
diagonal lines, as opposed to using only horizontal or vertical, are a sign of
integration.
The popcorn vectogram is
a tool I used today for convergence and divergence, & I was proud of how
long I was able to use it before needing a break.
I also used one of those
old fashioned overhead projectors with a transparent picture of a bunch of mice
on a skating rink - I had to find different objects hidden in the mice.
I was able to find seven
(one was a pair of glasses hidden in ears, one was an ice cream cone in a hat),
some of which I pointed out by circling the appropriate mouse, & crossing
out the picture on the border.
My session was a
work-out, but I thought to myself when I was done "I really AM making
progress, understanding this whole process of integration - it really would
make no sense to stop. PTSD Anxiety's physiologically reactive. But I can work,
slowly, in layers, to recognize it, and hopefully respond and healthier ways. I
need to keep going."
I'm incredibly lucky
& grateful to be able, nearly eight years in, to be able to do my interconnecting
- Feldenkrais, vision, and cognitive behavioral – therapies.
