I started listening to Year of No
Clutter: a Memoir - I did not request it, but I'm glad I got it... I don't have
a clutter problem, but I DO feel I need to sort through what belongs to my life
pre-illness.
When someone you love dies, there's
a process you go through, and with my daughters going back to school, my older
one for her last year, and me coming up on 7 years since I got sick, I need to
DO something to help me process my loss... not a shutting out, or running away
from how it all feels, but a memory trip, a goodbye, and integration of my
previous life with what I'm moving towards... I was alive for 50 years before I
got sick - that's a lot of living.
I'm moving more and more towards living
in the present, trying to do things that are meaningful for me NOW... finding
my new normal... I listened to an article about a woman who can't travel, who
watches travel shows, and learns about whatever sparks her interest - I thought
"what a great attitude!"... she does what she calls "simply
special" things, totally at her own pace.
I'm much more functional at home, on most
days, than I used to be, and I envision taking time off from vision therapy, and
the PTSD Anxiety work I do, when my daughters are on break this coming
Winter... see how I feel doing only Feldenkrais for a sort of maintenance.
Here are links to the article, as
well as the book.
