I seem to be going
through a rough patch, so I found a piece I wrote back in 2015 about pacing (see
the link below). Interestingly, though I've tweaked some things along the way,
much of what I said in that piece still holds true.
Here are some things I'm
reminding myself of -
Pacing matters, always,
AND is a positive, because it's a big part of what gets me through rough
patches. It's part of that all important thing called self-care. Sometimes I
have to pace myself more than others, that's reality.
Speaking of reality, I didn't
choose these disorders, but they are real. I don't like them, not at all, but
they're real, and so are my symptoms.
Sometimes I know why I
have a rough patch, sometimes not. Often it's a combo of factors. The reasons
have nothing to do with it being my fault, that I didn't manage myself as well
as I should have. Rough patches happen. Period.
I've gotten through
every single rough patch I've had, every tough day. Someone told me recently to write about what
I can do. At first I thought "OK, I'll do that." And then I thought
"but what CAN I do that's worth writing about?"
Then I realized, like
every other person out there managing some kind of invisible, or not, chronic
illness (or maybe more than one), that the managing is what we're doing.
We're doing our best to
meet responsibilities, and enjoy life in simple, but worthwhile ways.
Like my cat Molly interrupting
my few minutes of flute playing when she jumps on my lap, and lays down on my flute
case.
Grateful my daughter may
be able to sew patches on my jeans.
Grateful that Ron is
able to run all our errands, be a set of functionally healthy eyes to look at
what I'm unable to, and hug me.
Grateful that I can DO
self-care, including but not limited to all the cooking I have to do for my
diet.
Enjoy the beauty of a
tree changing colors, that I notice on a walk with Ron and Cosmo.
https://visiblepersoninvisibleproblem.blogspot.com/2015/09/september-27th-2015-pacing-its-about.html
