Dr. Margolis told me -
both by phone, and in person - that based on his years of experience, and
knowing me, he truly believes I can still make progress.
After all these
conversations, I'm looking around at my environment very differently now.
I realized that over a 6
month period, there were 4 major visual changes in my home environment -
1) removing carpet in
most rooms to show wood floor, which resulted in seeing all those patterns.
2) getting new living
room windows which were clear compared to the old, clouded up windows, so the
light comes in much more.
3) finally fixing our
old gas light on our front lawn, but unable to still keep it gas, it now has a
daylight bright light bulb, which creates stripes when it shines through our
vertical living room blinds. I close the blinds when it's dark out.
4) new dining room
chairs - vertical strips of wood for the backs, and regular vertical wooden
legs. The old chairs were unusual, upholstered chairs.
The place mats currently
on our dining room table are blue and white striped place mats, which I turned
over so now they are just dark blue.
I covered the piano
keyboard (it's electric so it doesn't have a cover like a regular piano).
Always things to learn
about. Learning is good - it's good for the brain. And just like a baby, I want
to learn, to keep moving forward... gradually, enjoying the view along the way.