September - September starts
tomorrow... That's the month I got sick 7 years ago... I feel a prick of fear,
and remind myself that I've lived through 6 Septembers without a health
crisis... I've ALSO survived literally falling down, as well as setbacks both
large and small and in between.
Time - I feel like it's time for me
to stop thinking so much about EXACTLY how long it's been since I got sick...
What really matters is what's happening NOW, trying to live and enjoy in the
present, AND trying to keep moving forward.
My story - I remind myself more and
more not to compare myself to others - this is my story... I might relate to
something that someone else is going through, we may share some similarities,
but ultimately my story is uniquely my own.
Challenges and learning - I still
have a lot of challenges to deal with, and no way to know how far I will get,
but I'll keep trying to figure things out... It is truly amazing to me how much
I have learned, and continue to learn, about my neurological self.
My team - I had NO idea when I got
sick that it would take 5 people (in the order they first came on the scene) to
help me - an OT/ Feldenkrais practitioner (Joyce), a vision therapist (Ann) and
her supervising developmental optometrist (and my doctor, Dr. Margolis), a
psychiatrist (Dr. Mirsky), and a CBT/mental health therapist (Christina).
Connecting - I'm grateful my friend Leora told me
about Joyce, who in turn told me about Dr. Margolis. I figured out I needed to work with a
psychiatrist, and Ron helped me find one, Dr. Mirsky recommended cognitive behavioral therapy, and Ron discovered the anxiety treatment center where I got matched up by Jen with
Christina.
Myself - I've discovered I have
strength and courage inside myself that I never would have guessed existed...
I'm also resourceful, creative, kind, smart, and I'm realizing that especially
with the rehab, I'm definitely a work in progress ... What a journey it's been,
and continues to be.
