I've learned this week that doing 2
things in 1 day is doable, but not something I want to do with regularity.
I have to limit screen time - both
computer & iPhone.
I've learned that my irritable bowel
syndrome (IBS - diagnosed 6/17 by my gastroenterologist, &
apparently a common combination with migraine associated vertigo - MAV), is
still a thing when overload happens. Yes, I have meds for it, & I know
what's going on, but it's still another piece of my health package.
I still have a vision disorder,
& cognitive processing (I wrote about this at some length in a piece posted
6-4-16) is still an issue. Understanding
what I read - unless it's my own writing - is very difficult when there's any
complexity.
Christina (CBT) & I talked about
how demanding PTSD Anxiety is - always wanting more & more - as if what
you/I have is never enough. It's incredibly easy, especially since rehab is
about making progress, to fall into this.
Not that making progress is
undesirable - I still plan to use my Brock string on reasonably good days. I'm still interested in seeing if some kind
of prism in my reading/near glasses would be helpful.
People like to use the word
limitations, challenges. I think
sometimes the word disabled is appropriate. I want to be honest with myself, which means that
I will keep trying, but also acknowledge that my life has changed. I want to stop trying to be, get back, the way
I used to be - that's part of the "more, more, more," & isn't
helpful.
I've talked about my therapies ultimately
becoming support/maintenance, but I don't know what that will look like, as I go
thru changes not just neurologically, but in my life in general. Brains -
people - are SO complex. I think my medical team has, & will continue to
learn, on this journey of mine.
