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It’s been a decade since I got sick. I didn’t know then, that night, that my life was dramatically changed. I’ve done therapies, and they’ve...

November 4th 2016 My support system...

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As I said in my last post, it's National Caregivers Month.  I don't, thankfully, need "caregivers".  Fortunately, I am still able to care for myself in fundamental ways.  But I DO have a support system that is really important to me.

I know that Ron (my husband) and I, given our "druthers" wouldn't choose my disorders.  But it's five years out now, and we are managing.  He seldom complains, whether he always "gets it" or not.  In the helping department, this probably isn't a complete list, but he drives me to the vast majority of places I need to go, runs errands, and schleps laundry up and down stairs (it's not the weight, but rather the balancing act).  Last but not least, Ron gives me a shoulder to cry on when needed.  I'm very grateful to have him in my life.

My daughters, college students who no longer live at home full time, were here in the beginning, which was very hard.  I know it was - and still is at times - really difficult to have a mom with significant disabilities.  But I think they know I do my best, and they also seldom complain.   I listen to them, help in ways that I can, and try to share experiences with them when possible.  They each help out and do what I ask, most of the time, when they are home.  They are becoming truly good human beings, and I'm proud of them.

My parents (and Ron) are the only family members, to my knowledge, who read my blog posts.  My mom and dad are always in my corner, rooting for me.  Concerned but also trying to simply give support.  That means a lot to me.  There are, to be honest, some family members who have drifted as time has gone by.  My parents also give much appreciated financial help.

I'm very grateful for my friends.  Most of my friends are online, and the majority of my social contact is online.  There are a handful of very special people whom I've never met in person - and possibly never will - but whose friendship I value tremendously.

Of course, there's my OT Joyce and VT Ann, who are both skilled, caring individuals determined to keep helping me.  Ann actually reads my blog posts, which helps her to understand my life outside of VT.  Dr. Margolis, my Developmental Optometrist, is one of the best doctors I know.

The Vestibular Disorders Association is not a single person, but a wonderful resource and I'm grateful they exist, to help educate and spread the word about these invisible disorders.

Thank you to everyone who is part of my support system. 

If you are struggling, please reach out!  If you know someone who is having a really rough time, please encourage them to reach out!  NO one has to get through this alone.

Here's a link to VEDA - www.vestibular.org

and here's a link to the National Suicide Hotline - 



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November 1st 2016 It's your turn...

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I've tried to share about myself in the hopes that people will have some understanding of my invisible disorders.  I hope my writing is informative, honest, and hopeful - that is always my intent.  I plan to keep sharing snapshots of my world, but I'd like to cast a broader net.

To that end, to everyone who has read my pieces, it's your turn to speak out - I'd like to hear from you.  Tell me about a typical day, a success, or something that's a particular challenge.  Whatever you share doesn't need to be long, and if you don't follow me on FB (though I hope you do :-) ), you can comment on my blog site.  I always check for comments, and then you'd need to check back on the site for my reply.  You can also tell me you'd like to talk to me, to figure out what you want to share.  You can message me on FB - for those of you seeing my writing for the first time, my FB page has the same name as my blog site, Visible Person, Invisible Problem.   

I'd like to incorporate my readers' stories into future blog pieces.  I won't surprise anyone; we'll communicate, and I'll make sure I have your permission.  I may do editing, but I want to be sure I'm sharing what you want me to say.  I'll need to see what works best for me, and the person whose story I'm sharing.  If I get deluged, I won't share everything at once - I'll have to see what happens.  However, I'd really like to do this because I think the more stories we share, the more we can support each other AND raise awareness.  Supporting each other is important, but speaking out and helping people to gain a better understanding of vestibular/vision disorders is also really important.

Finally, please share stories about caregivers - family members, friends, medical professionals - anyone who is part of your support system.  November is National Caregiver Month, so I'm hoping to share some stories about the people who help you cope.


Thank you - I look forward to hearing from you all!

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October 11th 2016 Choices re challenges - like a conversation while standing...

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I attended a morning Rosh Hashanah (High Holidays) service for my congregation.  My husband Ron and I shared a reading, of which he read the majority; I read the first three lines.  I had printed out the text, re-formatted, so I didn't need to deal with my reading glasses.  After the service, we joined our friends for the Oneg - the food/social part of the event.  I engaged in conversation with a friend, while standing.  Then I moved on and had a conversation with two other friends, a third joining in at some point. 

This was a BIG challenge for me.  Balancing while standing, rather than sitting down, is more work.  Add in processing conversations while being aware of other sounds in the room, making some eye contact - this is multi-tasking!  I wanted to sit down, but this would have meant excusing myself, and excluding myself from a few minutes to connect IN PERSON with friends I rarely see.  So, I stayed put, but I was working hard, and could feel myself getting hot with the exertion of the work.  I occasionally looked around for a chair, as if one would magically materialize right next to me.  When Ron eventually walked over, I told him I needed to go.

I knew we were going to a cousin's house for dinner later.  Doing TWO things in one day is always a challenge, but two BIG things?!  What was I thinking?  I tried to keep things low key, and did rest in between, but going out again was hard.  There was another car ride - a longer one in the afternoon - and more people.  I limited my standing as much as possible, which meant spending some of the time either alone, or simply not engaged in conversation with anyone.  I was tired.  I had already agreed with Ron, and my daughter Cara who was able to come along, what time we'd leave.  After a day of sensory overload, it always takes me some time to unwind, and get to sleep. 

When special events present themselves, I have to make choices.  I spend a fair amount of time by myself - yes, I live with my husband, but he goes places without me (which I expect him to) - and I didn't want to miss out on the holiday.  But making choices is never easy - I often have to sit with the question of  "what do I do?" for a little while, before I make my decision.  I never go to evening High Holiday services anymore.  Evenings are more difficult, and there's no way I can attend both the evening AND morning, so I only attend in the morning. 

I ask myself, once I've gotten through a challenging day (or event), if I'd make the same choices again.  My answer varies.  Knowing when to push myself, and when to say "I'm going to have to miss out," isn't always obvious.  I do my best to make sure that after anything really demanding, the following day is low key.  Even without special events or outings, planning and scheduling are a constant issue for me.  I've gained a pretty good understanding of my disorders.  I know that some seemingly ordinary things - like a conversation while standing -  are a big deal for me.  Even so, it's impossible to always anticipate EVERYTHING.  It's also not always possible to know all the details of what will be involved.  So I try to make good choices, and looking back, focus on whatever element of what I did that was successful.

Clarification:

As I said in this post, I already had 1) processed the service, 2) done my reading and 3) was dealing with a fair amount of noise in the social hall.  I also had not had much of a break in between the service, and the socializing.  All of that mattered. 


BUT, I want to be sure people understand that literally standing still is difficult, because it is static.  When I go for daily walks with Ron and our dog, he and I often talk.  Although this is challenging, movement is better.  When upright, I always prefer movement to standing still.


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